ARGH!

okay, not that i really think anyone still reads this, except for amanda, but i feel compelled to write a post while my Cornbread Chicken Pot Pie is baking.

here's a few things that are on my mind:

my mother is insane. my daddy recently filled me in on some of the finer details about this lawsuit she's got going on, and the only way i can sum it up is by saying that my mother is INSANE. like she thinks my daddy not only "knows" alan greenspan, but substitutes in for him at work sometimes. and she thinks my daddy's blog is proof he's got some secret job (and therefore, secret money) that she doesn't know about. she claims my daddy is living some lavish lifestyle and all kinds of bullshit. hi, you think he'd still be climbing 14 flights of stairs to live in a 500 square foot apartment if he was living a "lavish" lifestyle? for fuck's sake, he'd at least live in a building with an elevator! and here's my main problem: yes my daddy owes her money. (not as much as she claims). but what annoys me most about this all is that my mother has many moments where she is a perfectly SANE, smart, independent, successful woman. but then she has those other moments where she's a vindictive, bitter, self-centered bitch who is letting the fact that her husband cheated and left her define who she is. they were married 18 years, and he left 12 years ago, and it's not like she was still in love with him, so get over it! i really REALLY don't want my mother ending up alone and unhappy (and neither does she), but she doesn't see that she's not helping herself.

basically all this is going to mean kim's wedding in august is going to be a great big fuck fest. oh, and it'll be worse than when she picked a fight with my daddy at MY wedding, because my step-mother (the home-wrecking whore, according to my mother) will actually be at the wedding. as she rightfully should, since she's paying for a lot of it. yeah, i was TRYING to be optimistic and think that my mother could put someone other than herself, put her own hostilities and bitterness aside for 1 lousy day for kim's sake, and i really don't think it'll happen now.

moving right along, job hunts suck. amanda, i'm sure you understand better than the rest of us. but mark has recently found out that he can't transfer within t-mobile, because they don't have any open store manager positions. which means "he" has to look for another job. and i say "he" because my darling baldie isn't taking this as seriously as i would like, and "i" have been the one to scour careerbuilder and hotjobs, and emailing him dozens of jobs he should send his resume to. (his resume that i wrote, mind you). i'm just stressing because we're driving to DE this weekend to see what our money can get us, apartment wise, our lease is up in less than 2 months, and i'm feeling like it's crunch time. mark has tomorrow off, and he promises to sit down and focus on the plethora of job emails i've sent, so we'll see.

i've also been looking online for a job for my sister. kim was working at david's bridal, commuting an hour in a gas guzzling old buick to make $7.50/hour. basically it wasn't actually MAKING her any money, so friday's her last day. with no new job lined up. and jeff, who can't manage to pass his classes or something, and is on the super-duper senior track, doesn't have a job. yet he keeps trying to make her feel better by saying things will be okay. she's not sure HOW, since they have no income. she wants him to transfer. say, to University of Delaware. (mark now thinks this has all been one big conspiracy). jeff can take a year off, get in-state residency/tuition, and not be terribly far behind. not like he's on the standard 4 year plan anyway. there are NO jobs in lincoln NE. well, a few, but nothing kim would ever consider a "career". and as she's going to be the sole provider for her and jeff while he spends ANOTHER 3 years in college, she wants a job that's not just some shit ass menial crap that she hates. hi, she didn't get her masters, and $90K in student loans to go work at fucking McDonald's. but jeff has it in his head that yes, Philly has more jobs, but it has more people, so it all balances out to be the same as the job market in Lincoln NE. we'll let him get past the wedding before she really nags him about moving. she's miserable in NE. all her friends have graduated, the job market sucks ass, and she's tired of being a poor college student. the thought of staying in the middle of a corn field for at LEAST 3 more years depresses the crap out of her.

sorry, got caught up in my rambling. my pot pie is done. time to eat.